i actually missed blogging.

yes i do.
i wanna write a long long post talking bout nothing and posting lots and lots of pictures  up just for the fun of it.
i wanna rant a long long post and then post it up to make myself feel better.
i wanna post a blog post full of nice nice pics and not just post  them up in fb's photo album.

so many things i wanna do, so little time.

i want my life back. i wanna go back to the time where i can club all nighht long and go college tthe next day.
i want to stay in library and chit chat study with my friend till late at night and end our studying session with a ramli burger.
i wanna go h2o randomly when itst studying time just as an excuse to get a break from books.
i wanna enjoy my life and feel young and have the energy to yum cha at night despite of a whole day of working.

but this is no longer my life.

i am now a Office Lady. this position needs commitment. very high commitment.
commitment so high that i'm not sure if i can do it.

i get tired so often nnowadays that even clubbing does not seem to be interesting anymore.
yumcha session will often be rejected coz i'd rather stay at home looking at the ceiling.
i just feel like staying at home, once i'm out of office.

thats the life of a working adult? or thats part and parcel of growing up?

i don't know ...

a series of unfortunate events.

i think i'm stalked.
by a string of bad luck.

everything is not happening right. EVERYTHING.


my bad luck is even passing to others and causing losses.

i got the 1/1000 chance of being spotted [for a not good thing].

everything just have to be not usable the moment i need it.

and not to mention the red lights i met. 85% of the traffic lights is red for me wtf.
shouldn't it be just 33.3%? or 50% also acceptable.

and i was bitten again. not shy yet am i?


sigh~ just hope things will get better.

爱一个人好难？

如果你不爱一个人,请放手. 好让别人有机会爱她.
如果你爱的人放弃了你, 请放开自己, 好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的, 有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 . 但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的, 有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有, 但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了. 女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害, 我选择谎言;
如果谎言一种伤害, 我选择沉默;
如果沉默是一种伤害, 我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，你怕不怕付出 ,
如果迷乱是苦，你会不会选择结束,
如果追求是苦，你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,
如果分离是苦，你要向谁倾诉,
好多事情都是后来才看清楚, 好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!



其实爱一个人是很简单的，

１.她無聊時陪她.
２.她難過時安慰她.
３.不讓女友主動約.
4.讓她每天都開心愉快.
5.不要讓她傷心難過.
6.當她被欺負要立刻去保護她.
7.不要隱瞞女友事情.
8.不背叛.

有那么难吗？

monday reds ",

feeling the "monday blues" -.-
so i need to rant ...

bu i wonder, why monday BLUEs?
when blue is mentioned, i see peace and freedom. thus, blue is more for a Friday.

There are 7 colours in rainbow. Or to put it more precisely, there are 7 main colours in our nature.
And there are 7 days in a week.

Perhaps they are meant to be related together.

Red – Monday
Orange – Tuesday
Yellow – Wednesday
Green – Thursday
Blue – Friday ;)
Indigo – Saturday
Purple – Sunday

I think it matches =)

Monday is a red day. Coz red signifies warning and danger. which is so right for a monday because it’s the day to prepare for a whole week of challenges -.-

Moving on to Tuesday, Red becomes orange as one day of the risk and challenges to be faced is over. And that is definitely something to be happy of ;)

It’s a bright yellowish Wednesday because it’s only two days away from Friday ;):):)

Green thursday: finally we have some eye soothing colour.

Blue Friday – finally, peace ^^v

Indigo Saturday, special and personalized day to do anything u wan.

Purple Sunday, for royal and those u love, for instance: Jesus :):):)


p.s. i hardly have time to touch my com furthermore update my blog. this post is written in office and email back to my own email and copy and paste and format it here.



i'm happy again now :):):)

happy belated birthday to me.

right this moment i am so damn sad i forgot how was it like to be happy.

nothing went right today. N-O-T-H-I-N-G.

even the ramli burger store that sells prawn burger that i super feel like eating is not open.

i din get to eat any decent lunch or dinner and i dont get to enjoy my saturday all because of the performance, and the stupid felle cancelled our performance last min because they dun wan too many chinese dance. they're afraid it will be discriminating other races wtf.

ok, i think i shall start with my morning.

so i wake up today feeling so damn blessed and happy because i had an extremely happy night last night. thank God for that.

then, i rememberred that today 4pm i'm suppose to go kl and meet up with the dancing team coz we were told that we were invited to perform at sunway pyramid open air carpark -- rumah terbuka menteri selangor. so bout 2 sth i followed my sis down to kl coz i tot i would go to the saloon to tie hair first coz i lazy tie myself.

but when i reach kl, i remembered i had to go buy other thing as well so i went to buy first. then after buying, i was told that the saloon aunty no time tie hair liao so we have to tie ourselves coz we need to rush to practice. wtf. so we went to practice. we were suppose to perform two dances. so we practiced both and brought both set of clothes over. we were told to reach there at 6pm. and then they tell me we were dancing at 9pm -.- means we need to be there 3 hrs earlier?

i tot with all the waiting, we would get decent food. they said we could get decent food. but i am so extremely wrong. wat food? eat your foot la. so we have to stay in the half-a-tent we were provided for 3 hrs doing nothing. and then finally its our turn. perform liao one dance, they say they DON'T NEED us to perform another dance. wtf. so u invite us here to perform two dance and now u suddenly dun need us because menteri came late and now he got no time to see us perform d? *roll eyes 99*

so after that, i got notice that my friend thinks my online invitation to zouk thru blog is not sincere enough and last night's invitation is not confirm enough, none of them decided to turn up at zouk. even the table we booked have to line up wan -.-

so we went maison instead. ladies nite so each of us pay less than rm50. then we were too tired to go yum cha so we wanted to take the fastest way back, aka the smart tunnel, but it turn out the got a stupid road block for nothing right in front of the smart tunnel so we jam damn long there wtf. i think road blocks are stupid. tell me wat benefit we can get thru the road blocks besides wasting our money and your time not to mention my 100x more precious time?

i tot that would be the end after the road block jam but its not. the smart tag decided to not work and i was driving front and back of the smart tag lane for like 5 times then we decided to go to the touch n go lane and i was too far from the machine i have to move my car back and front again to scan again.

by that time u can already imagine how angry i am.

and its still havent end yet. oj sim suddenly i dunno why decided to pack every single thing i left in his car and give it back to me. why do i feel this is some sort of thing ppl will do when they wanna break up? and then he suggested to fetch me home first then only fetch karwai home coz its more convenient o.O i never know fetching your gf back last is so inconvenient for a bf.

then, while walking back home, i realise, i forgot to bring house key. omg wtf how bad can things getttt????? so i have to call my mum at 4am to open door for me with the cigg smell all over my hair and body. how pleasant scene was that.

and now, i cant sleep and i'm seriously wondering. how can one's life bo at the peak one day and at the lowest valley the next day? even the financial crisis took quite some time to finally sink in, but the two very contrasting day happened in my life.

i feel so weak and disappointed. so many things could have make my life now bettter, but none fo them happened. and i'm still sitting here, looking into my laptop with my eyes flooded.

i think a lot, i know.

some famous ppl once say and i quote,

"Think highly of yourself, for the world takes you at your own estimate."

but sometimes, i feel thinking too highly of yourself will eventually make u loose a lot of learning opportunities. nobody will, or rather they can't and they won't, correct things u did wrong. neither will they wanna even talk bout it.

if u r at managerial level, your subordinates will just continue kissing your shoes even if u did wrong. and they will let u think as highly of yourself as u want, but remember :

"Men think highly of those who rise rapidly in the world; whereas nothing rises quicker than dust, straw, and feathers."

i admit i am one of those who thinks a lot. especially when it comes to relationship wise.
but i surely hope i'm not one of those who thinks too highly of myself. i'm still young and i still got lots to learn. i don't wan any arrogance to be the obstacle for me to learn of grow. so if i'm thinking too highly of myself, please remind me if u consider yourself as a friend of mine.

othe women are born to think a lot and they tend to make simple things complicated. and i never dare to deny that. because i saw the 3 pics below.







*click on picture for larger view :):):)


thank God if u're a man.

today.

i'm in a bad mood and i wanna rant.

before i rant, let me wish my dearest cousin:
cheng wai shan a very very very happy birthday :)

ok. back to ranting.
first was at the clinic where i have accompanied my sis for medical checkup for her new job.
the nurse at the reception counter that it suppose to be the most polite one, is ridiculously rude.
my sis politely ask

"Cik, boleh saya keluar beli air sekejap?"
"Mana nak beli air??!"
"Itu kedai di luar sana"
"Itu kedai mana ada buka?!"

it was damn loud and rude seriously. then after my sis went in to see the doctor, she told me we can leave d and as we pass by the counter she said "terima kasih" to the nurse. she replied.

"Eh nak pergi mana tu?"
"Doctor kata saya sudah boleh balik."
"Saya tak kata u boleh balik u tak boleh balik la."

then she went into her office. took an envelope out. shout my sis's name. and say

"nah sekarang u bolek balik laaa"

the tone is exactly like the LC way those minister and police in our country talk u know what i mean.

speaking of police. there is this new "rumored rule" in our country that for every saman police hand in, it shows that they never rasuah. they will get rm100. no wonder they are setting up road blocks EVERYWHERE. and trying thier so very best to pick on u and try to find some way to saman u.

it also means that, any bribe aka rasuah below rm100 given the police will not layan coz he rather saman u and get rm100 from the taxpayers. hahaha.

watever, i know i am just not satisfied with everything.