happy belated birthday to me.

right this moment i am so damn sad i forgot how was it like to be happy.

nothing went right today. N-O-T-H-I-N-G.

even the ramli burger store that sells prawn burger that i super feel like eating is not open.

i din get to eat any decent lunch or dinner and i dont get to enjoy my saturday all because of the performance, and the stupid felle cancelled our performance last min because they dun wan too many chinese dance. they're afraid it will be discriminating other races wtf.

ok, i think i shall start with my morning.

so i wake up today feeling so damn blessed and happy because i had an extremely happy night last night. thank God for that.

then, i rememberred that today 4pm i'm suppose to go kl and meet up with the dancing team coz we were told that we were invited to perform at sunway pyramid open air carpark -- rumah terbuka menteri selangor. so bout 2 sth i followed my sis down to kl coz i tot i would go to the saloon to tie hair first coz i lazy tie myself.

but when i reach kl, i remembered i had to go buy other thing as well so i went to buy first. then after buying, i was told that the saloon aunty no time tie hair liao so we have to tie ourselves coz we need to rush to practice. wtf. so we went to practice. we were suppose to perform two dances. so we practiced both and brought both set of clothes over. we were told to reach there at 6pm. and then they tell me we were dancing at 9pm -.- means we need to be there 3 hrs earlier?

i tot with all the waiting, we would get decent food. they said we could get decent food. but i am so extremely wrong. wat food? eat your foot la. so we have to stay in the half-a-tent we were provided for 3 hrs doing nothing. and then finally its our turn. perform liao one dance, they say they DON'T NEED us to perform another dance. wtf. so u invite us here to perform two dance and now u suddenly dun need us because menteri came late and now he got no time to see us perform d? *roll eyes 99*

so after that, i got notice that my friend thinks my online invitation to zouk thru blog is not sincere enough and last night's invitation is not confirm enough, none of them decided to turn up at zouk. even the table we booked have to line up wan -.-

so we went maison instead. ladies nite so each of us pay less than rm50. then we were too tired to go yum cha so we wanted to take the fastest way back, aka the smart tunnel, but it turn out the got a stupid road block for nothing right in front of the smart tunnel so we jam damn long there wtf. i think road blocks are stupid. tell me wat benefit we can get thru the road blocks besides wasting our money and your time not to mention my 100x more precious time?

i tot that would be the end after the road block jam but its not. the smart tag decided to not work and i was driving front and back of the smart tag lane for like 5 times then we decided to go to the touch n go lane and i was too far from the machine i have to move my car back and front again to scan again.

by that time u can already imagine how angry i am.

and its still havent end yet. oj sim suddenly i dunno why decided to pack every single thing i left in his car and give it back to me. why do i feel this is some sort of thing ppl will do when they wanna break up? and then he suggested to fetch me home first then only fetch karwai home coz its more convenient o.O i never know fetching your gf back last is so inconvenient for a bf.

then, while walking back home, i realise, i forgot to bring house key. omg wtf how bad can things getttt????? so i have to call my mum at 4am to open door for me with the cigg smell all over my hair and body. how pleasant scene was that.

and now, i cant sleep and i'm seriously wondering. how can one's life bo at the peak one day and at the lowest valley the next day? even the financial crisis took quite some time to finally sink in, but the two very contrasting day happened in my life.

i feel so weak and disappointed. so many things could have make my life now bettter, but none fo them happened. and i'm still sitting here, looking into my laptop with my eyes flooded.