emptiness

since i started this blog ...
i've been avoiding posting sad stuffs up ...
coz my previous blog was full of sad and unhappy stuffs and i dun wan this blog to be the same ...
i wanna only see happy things when i post thins blog coz its a record of my journey to HAPPINESS ...

but reading my friend's blog make me starting to think differently ...
wat is sadness witout happiness?
if we haven't taste sadness we wouldn't appreciate the happiness we are enjoying now ...

therefore i decided to record down everything that happend if i got the time ...

these few days i have beeen sleepless witout even knowing the reason ...
but yesterday night ...
i figured out the reason ...
its EMPTINESS ...

some of u may be aware that my sis went off to aussie for her studies ...
and now in my house its just me and my mum ...
and in college ... i dun have any friend that is attending the same classes as me ...

thats how enptiness starting to haunt me ...
i started to feel that i'm alone in this world ...
and i started to think maybe me being born is a mistake ...
and stuffs like that ...
feeling helpless and lonely all the time ...
i use tears to fill my time ...
and i keep praying for strengh and wisdom ...
but nothing happened ...

but today ...
i decided to get a life of my own ...
find a way to fill my time with BENEFICIAL things [no i'm not knitting] ...

hope i will suceed in doin this ...
any suggestions for ways to fill my time are welcome =)

happy chinese new year~~

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!!~~

haha ... hope everybody got lots and lots of angpau ...

tmr college will be starting again -.-
and now i'm busy printing out my notes and "updating" tutorials {argh~}

so ... update again next time =)

birthday pics =)

Just got my birthday pics ^^

:: =) praying ::

thank you God for the great party =)
so glad to have all my friends surrounding me on my BIG day
hope all of us will be happy always
Amen =)
:: ONE OF my cakes ::
:: showing off the other of my cake ::
:: the girls =) ::

:: moon =) ::
:: =) mhui ::
:: =) jess ::
:: jasmine =) ::
:: my dearest LAMErs ::
with ther 1 2 3 4 pose
and xien's extra FINGER
:: with LAMErs ::


The guys :

:: saimeng =) jiajin ::

:: cheam =) theo ::
:: =) theo ::
:: =) cheam ::
:: =) daniel ::
:: =) huey joon aka bryan ::
:: =) bryan ken ::
:: they just can't resist NOT taking obscene pics ::

Random pics :

:: the PPP [pretty party planners] =) ::
:: all of us =) ::
spot the difference



Last but not least …



:: the ONLY and most decent pic with oj =) ::

there are videos also but still with shu wei ...
will upload when i get it ...

those who want the pics ... can ask me anytime =)

happy valentine's day =)

happy valentine's day ppl !!~~~

i know i know ....
its been DAMN DAMN DAMN long since i update ...
but there have been so many various reasonS that make me unable to update my blog ...
telling them maybe will make it sound like i'm giving excuses for not updating ...
but i'll still state them one by one anyway =)


1. was working the whole month of Jan.

everysingle day? ...
no la ... 1st of jan never work ... starting on 2nd of jan la ...
till 31st? ... no one day rest? ... YUPP ...


2. stremyx down

why? ... my mum "forgot" to pay the RM198 bill ...


3. blogger error half way updating my blog

this happened twice and my post wasn't saved ...
damn mengemokan ... grrr ....


so now for every few sentance i typed ..
i'll save once =)

ok ... now to updates ....

i dunno when to start ...
my birthday? ... hmmmm ....

my birthday is on the 6th of feb =)

on the 5th of feb bout 7pm ...
i'm in mhui's car along with moon and theo ...
going to the curve to makan ...
jammed all the way and taking wrong ways and reach there bout 8sth ....
all of us damn hungry and setted in kim gary ...

but the food SERIOUSLY disappointed ALL of us ...

then they brought me to pyramid ...
i heard this wasn't the initial plan but just something happend that they had to ...
at pyramid ...
xien ken eric bryan alvin jiajin is there d =)
we went to rainforest ...
and start ordering beers drinks ...
and i start drinking with everybody ...
together or one on one ...

then jess and cheam came ...
then sai meng and koksiang came ...
then oj derrick and shu wei came ...

drinking and cutting cake till late ...

pictures up tmr k? ... too tired ...
and will continue this entry tmr ...
nite nite ...