lost

i'm feeling damn lost now.
i've got my bachelor's degree. i've completed it finally.

so ... wat now?

wat job should i look for?
finance? accounting? audit?

i prefer finance. coz accounting is abit boring for me.
so if finance, financial advisory? wat finance?
y got so many types of finance jobs wannnn???

they say audit job is easier to find. but always need to work OT.
and i dun wanna always finish work at 11pm and reach home at 12am then 6am need to wake up and go work again -___-

accounting job?
wat accounting job should i do?
my sis is doing accounts receivable.
last time papa bear was doing consolidation.

do i have the patience to do the same thing over and over again without getting bored of it?
but i prefer adventurous stuffs wor =(

plus, by the time my sis finish work and reach home, i can tell she is damn tired and totally not in the mood to answer my noob questions lo.

and my mum. sigh. the biggest problem i am facing.
she have the mindset that i dun wanna look for job just because i did mentioned to her that i feel like resting for a month before i start work, and of course, she think it is an outrageously stupid idea, even if i'm taking freelance jobs at the same time.
thus, i decided i will join the rat race once dec begins.
but now, she is already showing super black face at me everytime i look at her.

also, i clean the whole house every wed. and it was okay for her.
but just now she told me she borrowed my aunt's maid to help her tmr.
can nobody tell she did that on purpose to make me feel guilty?

ok.
so its my fault i'm not looking for job yet.
its my fault i still feel like enjoying my life before i start working.

but i swear. the first job i get. watever date they offer. i will take the job and start it k.
so please help me live a happy life k.

i'm so lost i feel like i'm a useless retard.
i've tried my best but its just not good enough.
i'm sorry. i will start working asap. sorry to disappoint u.