working life wasn't as good as i tot.
when i was studyin gin college, i always think working is better than studying [especially during exam times]. i thought that i could go drink/shopping rite after work and no worries bout any tutorials/tests undone.
but its not like that.
after work, i'm too tired to go shopping/yum cha. i just feel like going home and sleep. but when i reach home i dun sleep. i'll just go eat and online till my eye cannot take it anymore. then i'll sleep.
and i think i'm getting more and more useless becoz of life like this.
at least when i'm in college, i'm learning. but at work now. i am doing repetitive things.
and that makes me feel like studying again. but looking back at my results and the struggles i went to, i dun feel like studying anymore.
what should i do? i'm confused. i dun thing i'm ready to enter the corporate world. i dun think i'm ready to agree with my boss on everything including those i think is not right. i dun think i'm ready to stop being a kid and grow up. i dun think i'm ready to not having things the way i want. i dun think i'm ready to put in charge of sth important. i dun think i'm ready to face the fact that i can't do anything right.
i dun think i'm ready to be told i'm useless.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
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Maybe taking up some courses will reduce the feelings of useless gua...
ReplyDeleteI think any courses will do, provided that you have the heart..
I read a friend's blog a few years ago, who said nobody in the world is ever ready for the corporate world. We're just chucked into it and voluntarily forced to adapt. Which is quite true and I believe everybody faces it in their life.
ReplyDeleteAnyway weekend is the best time to get out. ;) I'm still active in Leo Club and even though it's very tiring but it gives you a sense of purpose.